traumatised

though choir competition has ended, wats comin nex is Light Of The World Concert, and on the same day which is 13th, i have to go to another qualification round to the finals for the pop band competition around afternoon. which of course tats the middle of LoTW rehearsal, and imagine how im gonna say to Cguan, sigh.


abit regret for joinin the drama group, cause of the trouble i got into, and the commitment which i hav not fulfil. things are going very messy it seems.


the officer in the hostel has found out tat im stil squatting in hostel though i hav already checked out previouly and have not check in for tis sem. tats a reli bad thing, now he is forcing my x-roommates to move to other rooms just so to empty the room. feel sorry for my roommates, its all cause of me tat they hav to move from the room. i feel guilty. and tat oso means its causing me problems to practise late in hostel then. by the mean time, we are stil delayin the orders by the officer.


now, i reli tink i mis the freedom to able to roam freely in the hostel, now i feel like sum1 being abandoned. not able to go down to dinner with all my frens, hav to keep myself low profile from being notice, stay away from the officers. feel so left out by the others, and yet i chose tis path without considerin much but my economical difficulties, but wats left for me to choose? i guess nothing, i reli had no choice.